"There is this guy who has always been poor, and one day he decides to pray to God that he could win the lotto. He prays and prays, but doesn't win. Every day, he prays to God that he could win the lotto, and it never happens.
One day, when he's very old and frustrated, he gets on his knees and says, "Look, God. This is the last time I'm going to pray. PLEASE let me win the lotto, or at least tell me why you aren't letting me win."
Suddenly, an angel appears before the man and says, "Look, sir, could you do God a favor and at least buy a lotto ticket?! "
And this is what I was doing for a while, buying Lotto Tickets, figuratively speaking. I made this commitment once when I noticed that opportunities were jumping on me and I did not make a good use of them. I started trying, asking and making sure that I give whatever it is a try.
However, this time I have this big opportunity before me and I am afraid to apply because I am afraid I lose it. But isn't that stupid, I am going to lose if I don't apply, right?! yes I am!
Therefore, I should apply and then see what happens, I will just do my best filling the application, if I got it that is fabulous, if I don't I will try again, there are always other opportunities and there are always next year's application.
Heading to my internship organization today, and while I was in the bud, I was reading something about the Fun of Failure', Gretchen in her " Happiness project" made it really seem so FUN. I have even thought about a movie that inspired me a lot " The School of Life": the movie has a very strong message, enjoy failure and disappointment because it is part of our lives and it is our life anyway we should enjoy it whatever happens!
'Try trying' was my motto for a while, I was even teaching it to my students, especially those who thought they were not good enough, I kept saying challenge yourself so I think I should challenge myself too.
The restrictions and limitations do only exist in our minds, we create them and we wonder from where they have come.
All the negative thoughts are still in my mind, however I am going to do it anyway, especially that the note on my cookies when I was at a Vietnamese restaurant today said: " Being aware of your fears will improve your life"!