بالونات الحيرة

كنت أحلم بالصّين كلّ ليلة
أتابع قصّة خرافيّة
لم تتجرأ جدّتي أن ترويها
قبلات نرميها للهواء
لفقاعات الأكسجين
التّي تصدم قلبي في لحظة
تفرغ قلبي من كلّ الهواء المحبوس باسم
الخطوط السّميكة
وتطير نحوي
أو تطير نحوك
عندما لا يحكي الزّمن سوى أخبار أينشتاين
عندما لا أقسم أن أهرب
في ليلة أخرى
لا تكفيني شمعة عيد
واحدة
أقسم أن أرقص
عندما يقتلون الموت فيّ
ويفلتون آخر بالونات الحيرة
أنت تفكّ زرّ قميصك واضعا قلبي في العلبة
أقسم أن أقتلع أنوف كلّ البهلوانات التّي ترقص في وجهي
أتمنى أن تكذب ولو لمرة واحدة وتقول الحقيقة
أن تفتح أدراج اليقظة
وتسأل غوغل إن كنت خائنة
أم حبيبة
أن ينطفئ شعور بالصّدمة
عندما أخبرتك أنّي أرحل
أنّي أقابل سور الصّين ليلا
أنّي لن ألهث
لن أقرّر
الموت
أو الحبّ
أو الحريّة
أفلتني مع بالونات الحيرة
وأتركني
أراقص أنفي
ربّما أبحث عنك
داخل عالم
مقتبس عنّي

Mike Dooley :"We Need to Think, Speak, and Behave, as If We Knew of Our Inevitable Successes"

You have, surely, come across his name. As a positive and dreams achiever, you may have seen or read about him on the bestselling DVD and book : The Secret. Or maybe your are one of the 300,000 subscribers across the planet that receive personalized notes 5 days a week from his tut.com. Otherwise you could be one of the readers of his famous books such as « Choose Them Wisely: Thoughts Become Things!», or you may have listened to his teachings thru his first audio program «Infinite Possibilities: The Art of Living Your Dreams» (2001), that sold a quarter million copy. Whatever could be the way, Mike Dooley remains one of the famous positive people that could guide you to discover the power of your mind and to use your thoughts in order to start living your dreams. The following is my extremely enjoyable interview with him:

http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/5473820/mike_dooley_we_need_to_think_speak.html?cat=7

My Girl On Her Roof

I was working on my pc and listening to Celine "d'amour et d'amitié", nice song. I don't know why when I listen to any song and then get caught in the middle of silence, I cannot handle it. Therefore, I keep listening to more songs so I don't face silence anymore. I do meditate and I listen to silence. Yet, after non-silence I feel I need more of it. But, this time I did not play another song, it was my dinner time. I walked to the kitchen, prepared some “delicious creation” of mine and then went upstairs to eat it. But I changed direction. I went to our roof.

It has been so much time, since the last I’ve been there. Even though I used to spend hours there thinking, dreaming and contemplating the inner and the outer me, I suddenly, stopped to do. The 90% of things we do unconsciously did choose to leave no place to the roof.

This time, the breeze was amazing, it was like hugging me. I was eating when I noticed that the building changed no more space is left. Everyone is building more and more; a home of concrete. The sky and the sun are the same. The birds are singing, as if life is a party. I can remember when I used to watch the clouds and the sky and imagine funny creatures. The breeze did not leave my hear alone. It kept playing with it. And my rose dress with blue and white snow was dancing with the breeze too. I have felt that I, magically, cleared my mind and my heart. I noticed that another thing did not change there, the little girl inside me. It seems happy to see me back. "A lot of knowledge and books", the roof wonders." You are always the same", he says.

It has been like no years have passed no time and no change. The sky, the sun, the birds and the little girl are the same.

PS: the planes too are the same...When I was kid I always felt that my prince is in one of these planes:)

My Lego Experience

You know that coloured plastic items that could be stuck to each other? Well, maybe you remember that you have played with it when you were young. How much castles, houses..did you build and destroy? Maybe thousands.

Every one for me was a thought a dream and an innocent smile. Unexpectedly, recently, I have bought Lego and I have started to build my old castles again. I still have emotions about them till now even while writing about it, even though I did buy them a week ago. More precisely, it was on my 23rd birthday. No! I am not that old for Lego! Well, I guess all my friends, when they know, will think I am childish. Yet, I have forgotten the last time when I have really cared of what people could think. I just try to realize every idea held on that thing between my ears no matter childish or crazy could be.

However, my Lego experience has overcome the fact of satisfying a non-understandable desire, but it is now more like enjoyment maybe art. The tension, thoughts and feelings I have and associate with building or creating my buildings, have another meaning. Sure, I won't be able to explain it but it is there and I guess having Lego for my birthday has been a clever choice :)

Still fall in love with its colours and possible shapes. At the same time, I still wonder how my Lego experience was when I was young. Sure, I would not spend all this time thinking, analysing and writing about it sure, I would rather spend that time building some dreamy castles!

Me, Ambracing Myself!

I was on my way to my friend's home holding her on my back. Sweet, cute, black Aurora moves my heart all the way. She has her own way to make me feel that joy and love even though we have just met. We don't know each other that much. I have not discovered all her magic yet. But the first sight and hug have it all. She was on my back like a butterfly or a very faithful bird, who is giving up his own freedom for the pleasure, he wants to be mine. She has that special Silhouette but she keeps her head up watching the sky all the time. A sunny -very hot- day, yet our love has turned it into heaven. I did not care for the weather or how much heavy she was. Every time my friend says I can care it for you, I say no she is my 'daughter' I have to keep her safe.

All the eyes watching her and me together; imaging what a beautiful relationship could we have, made me hold her more and more closely. And, above all, the guy on the library who said:" is it yours?" with a remarkable French accent. I answered with a rosy face: “yes”.

I was wondering how everybody is noticing that special connection between us. She is a 4-year dream coming true. And while my mind is keeping the same thought about it : “You have 23 and you are thinking to play guitar, music is for kids they can learn fast”, my mother and my heart tell me all the way your love is stronger you and her have that chemistry and Aurora will never ever let you down.

Well, that was the first step on our beautiful path. We will share love and acceptance.

Nithya Shanti: "Happiness is Not There or Hopefully Sometime..Happiness Is in Here, Now or Never!"

"Today is the happiest day of your life". Well, nothing different has to happen since every single day is special. That is, simply, the message of one of the happiness workshops provided by Nithya Shanti. Nithya Shanti, in fact, is a happiness coach, spiritual teacher, inspirational speaker, writer, healer, educator and modern day sage. He is committed to sharing transformational principles and practices for everyday happiness. He believes happiness, love, joy and peace could not be attainted, they have merely to be accepted and spread. The following is my interview with him:

http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/5515352/nithya_shanti_happiness_is_not_there.html?cat=7

A journey of unlearning

Experiences teach you how to be different. You learn, grow and improve what you are able to be. Experiences could decide your feelings and attitudes toward people and meanings. Experiences could decide your perceptual approach and your world in general. Yet, experiences could be mistaken, unforgettable, unnecessary or momentary. You learn everyday newness thru experiences and thru other ways too. I did read once that you can learn, however you are not able to unlearn. Your mind is merely able to move forward and grow, it is not possible for your mind to move backward, not to grow or unlearn.

If you want to change an attitude or a habit you cannot unlearn it, you are merely able to replace it or learn the opposite of it. However, I have an endless faith in the mind. I believe that everything is possible as you have the most sophisticated ‘computer’ in the world between your ears. Unlearning is an amazing journey! You have to empty your cup, if you want to know more and grow. An empty cup is able to receive more. A full cup is already learnt and forgotten. Unlearning resembles to an antitoxic diet. You remove toxic thoughts, lessons and experiences. You learn your own lesson. You try it yourself the tastes, colors, textures. You touch reality, smell reality, taste reality. And, you come to the conclusion that there is no reality no truth except the truth and reality you create. Every human being is unique and different. Every human being perceives the world differently. Every human being lives in his own world and in the illusion of communication.

Dare to unlearn all the lessons and truths you know. Dare to unlearn yourself.

Resist or let go?

Resistance has been a term very confusing to me. Does it mean power or struggle, having a personality or does is it a decision? Is it an action or a reaction?

I made a commitment times ago to stop being a reactive person and start to become an active person, not to behave according to external circumstances. Meanwhile, taking responsibility, not to be angry, sad or hurt because of the outside world. I was concerned with creating my own world. Then, comes the word resistance. I believe in letting go, in emptying your cup regularly. However, not to resist not to act seem inappropriate. Letting go could resemble somehow to giving up. They are two different words but lead to similar results. Let go as so many English verbs has different meanings the most interesting one is “to free from”, while give up means to abandon or to yield. The meaning seems similar. Yet, letting go is not inaction. It is however a harder action than giving up. To give up consists in taking no action. It is about facing a desperate situation with no possible solution. The result you give up, because you don’t have another choice. While, to let go is about choice. It is difficult to let go because we have been taught to do something otherwise we would keep worrying. To let go is to stop worrying, to not being concerned with something used to be perceived valuable.

Giving up is not letting go neither letting go is giving up. They are two different decisions. Yet, let’s come back to resistance. Resistance is not inaction but it is a reaction not an action. Resistance means creating an opposite force against which you try to fight! It is exactly the fact of fighting yourself.

The culture of Letting go remains a strange culture. It seems doing the opposite of what logicly should do. When Kahlil Gibran said “ If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don’t, they never were”, I felt it made sense. Yet, what is logic, sense or comprehension! When we learn about something different from another culture or we hear that someone was able to accomplish an impossible thing, we wonder about logic and sense. It is obvious that logic is relative as much as any other thing. Letting go is not that logic because it stands outside the consumptive culture. It does not concern the duty of acquiring. It is somehow giving. It means GIVING your dreams to the universe, to the planet. It is about avoid to worry or to care. Maybe then when you come over that desire of possession and acquisition, you would know the meaning of things and appreciate them better. Therefore, letting go is asking life to come!

جمع مؤنّث سالم

حياتي جمع مؤنّث سالم
وقلبي طريق مفتوح
نحو عالم لا يسمحون لي فيه أن

أفكّر

المنطق...

مفارقة أولي تأخذني منهم
من قواعدهم التي لا تنتهي
لا تستقيل الحدود أبدا
حدودهم حولي

المنطق...

افتعال التّفاعل المفتعل أصلا
هو منتهي بدئ المقولات الأولى
هم لا يرون البعد الثّالث
إلا قليلا
فكيف أحدثهم عن الرّابع والخامس والسّادس


هلّي أن أفكّر ولو للحظة
في صخب التّجارب المكرّرة

؟؟


أن أسقط لوحدي إن كان عليّ أن أسقط

هلّي أن أرى في هذا العالم غير ألوان قوس قزح أسود
عندما يفتحون النّور لا أدري أين تدفن الظلمة
أين تهرب
؟؟

الكون دائرة من التّصوّر
والوهم أكبر مني و أوسع


جمع مؤنّث سالم لا يهتمّ لقواعد النّصب كثيرا
خوفي أن يجروني إلى الأبد

أن أسمعهم وأصدّق
وأقلّب آخر الصّفحات بإحساس غير مكتمل

إحساس بالموت
مع قليل من الرّهبة
أو إحساس يالحياة
مع قليل من التّعوّد

أو قد أصنع مجالا خاصاّ
بخيط رفيع
يفصل المنطق عن المنطق

أروى الكعلي

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“Be a source of joy. And let the critics and haters

complain about the world.”

Paulo Coelh