Monday, June 7, 2010

A journey of unlearning

Experiences teach you how to be different. You learn, grow and improve what you are able to be. Experiences could decide your feelings and attitudes toward people and meanings. Experiences could decide your perceptual approach and your world in general. Yet, experiences could be mistaken, unforgettable, unnecessary or momentary. You learn everyday newness thru experiences and thru other ways too. I did read once that you can learn, however you are not able to unlearn. Your mind is merely able to move forward and grow, it is not possible for your mind to move backward, not to grow or unlearn.

If you want to change an attitude or a habit you cannot unlearn it, you are merely able to replace it or learn the opposite of it. However, I have an endless faith in the mind. I believe that everything is possible as you have the most sophisticated ‘computer’ in the world between your ears. Unlearning is an amazing journey! You have to empty your cup, if you want to know more and grow. An empty cup is able to receive more. A full cup is already learnt and forgotten. Unlearning resembles to an antitoxic diet. You remove toxic thoughts, lessons and experiences. You learn your own lesson. You try it yourself the tastes, colors, textures. You touch reality, smell reality, taste reality. And, you come to the conclusion that there is no reality no truth except the truth and reality you create. Every human being is unique and different. Every human being perceives the world differently. Every human being lives in his own world and in the illusion of communication.

Dare to unlearn all the lessons and truths you know. Dare to unlearn yourself.

Resist or let go?

Resistance has been a term very confusing to me. Does it mean power or struggle, having a personality or does is it a decision? Is it an action or a reaction?

I made a commitment times ago to stop being a reactive person and start to become an active person, not to behave according to external circumstances. Meanwhile, taking responsibility, not to be angry, sad or hurt because of the outside world. I was concerned with creating my own world. Then, comes the word resistance. I believe in letting go, in emptying your cup regularly. However, not to resist not to act seem inappropriate. Letting go could resemble somehow to giving up. They are two different words but lead to similar results. Let go as so many English verbs has different meanings the most interesting one is “to free from”, while give up means to abandon or to yield. The meaning seems similar. Yet, letting go is not inaction. It is however a harder action than giving up. To give up consists in taking no action. It is about facing a desperate situation with no possible solution. The result you give up, because you don’t have another choice. While, to let go is about choice. It is difficult to let go because we have been taught to do something otherwise we would keep worrying. To let go is to stop worrying, to not being concerned with something used to be perceived valuable.

Giving up is not letting go neither letting go is giving up. They are two different decisions. Yet, let’s come back to resistance. Resistance is not inaction but it is a reaction not an action. Resistance means creating an opposite force against which you try to fight! It is exactly the fact of fighting yourself.

The culture of Letting go remains a strange culture. It seems doing the opposite of what logicly should do. When Kahlil Gibran said “ If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don’t, they never were”, I felt it made sense. Yet, what is logic, sense or comprehension! When we learn about something different from another culture or we hear that someone was able to accomplish an impossible thing, we wonder about logic and sense. It is obvious that logic is relative as much as any other thing. Letting go is not that logic because it stands outside the consumptive culture. It does not concern the duty of acquiring. It is somehow giving. It means GIVING your dreams to the universe, to the planet. It is about avoid to worry or to care. Maybe then when you come over that desire of possession and acquisition, you would know the meaning of things and appreciate them better. Therefore, letting go is asking life to come!

جمع مؤنّث سالم

حياتي جمع مؤنّث سالم
وقلبي طريق مفتوح
نحو عالم لا يسمحون لي فيه أن



مفارقة أولي تأخذني منهم
من قواعدهم التي لا تنتهي
لا تستقيل الحدود أبدا
حدودهم حولي


افتعال التّفاعل المفتعل أصلا
هو منتهي بدئ المقولات الأولى
هم لا يرون البعد الثّالث
إلا قليلا
فكيف أحدثهم عن الرّابع والخامس والسّادس

هلّي أن أفكّر ولو للحظة
في صخب التّجارب المكرّرة


أن أسقط لوحدي إن كان عليّ أن أسقط

هلّي أن أرى في هذا العالم غير ألوان قوس قزح أسود
عندما يفتحون النّور لا أدري أين تدفن الظلمة
أين تهرب

الكون دائرة من التّصوّر
والوهم أكبر مني و أوسع

جمع مؤنّث سالم لا يهتمّ لقواعد النّصب كثيرا
خوفي أن يجروني إلى الأبد

أن أسمعهم وأصدّق
وأقلّب آخر الصّفحات بإحساس غير مكتمل

إحساس بالموت
مع قليل من الرّهبة
أو إحساس يالحياة
مع قليل من التّعوّد

أو قد أصنع مجالا خاصاّ
بخيط رفيع
يفصل المنطق عن المنطق

أروى الكعلي